17 days of training left and this is what i have to show for it?

A good tan never hurt anyone. well, actually, a good tan really has hurt a lot of people, but that's about my level of competence right now.  The nasty side effects of being outside for hours and hours and hours are many, especially if those hours are spent in suburban, exurban chicago but i digress....i'm exhausted and dreading the weather and whatever sort of rides my so-called friends will throw my way this weekend.  What with an 11 year old birthday party and a cranky husband, what do i have to fear, anyway?  The way i look at it, this far into the game, i need to start playing the happy game: so....last year on this day i was feeling_______________and i looked like _____________ and i was not able to _______________________and so on.  Whenever i look at last summer's photos, i realize that i don't smile in a single shot. Ouch.  At least today I laugh, although at IM Canada, I don't really think I'll be all that happy>